A night of someone’s happiness and celebration. All of us filled with thrill and excitement.
Then it happened.
That simple gesture.
I know I don’t have the right to feel this way, but I did anyway. It felt so real.
Him, hugging me from behind, it was something that I dreamed of for years.
His comfort, his love.
Knowing that he smiled, it was all that made my knees go jelly.
Knowing that it was me, out of all the rest, gave me the fantasy that maybe it is still me.
But, being the naive person that I am, of course I assumed. I believed. I thought it was true.
A gesture done out of the influence.
Fuck everything. Fuck feelings. Fuck gesture.
Why. Why do I still feel those butterflies whenever I see you. Your smile. Your eyes. Everything.
You told me you were happy. Happy that you made me happy. Fuck you. I hate you.
Because after all these years, all the pain and hurting, all those sleepless heart-aching nights, I still feel this way towards you.
You who never even considered looking back at me.
You whom I still love.
I love you, you silly fucked up bastard.
But no matter what I do, I will always look the same to you.
I will always be, will only be, your best friend.
I can only sigh.
I was happy. To have taken care of you.
Maybe you being under the influence had its advantages.
I wouldn’t have been with you if it weren’t for that.
I hate you ’cause after all these years, the fucking butterflies won’t die.
Even if it was just you being under the influence.
The sunset from the ship. Breath-taking.
Clannad is a complex show. On the surface, it’s a typical high school drama/romance with a hint of supernatural elements. As such, it also follows a pretty simple harem formula: a main protagonist surrounds himself with beautiful girls who each have problems that he attempts to resolve, as well as possibly some girls falling for him in the process. Shows like Bakemonogatari have deviated from this typical harem formula with its own unique brand of comedy and whip-smart dialogue, and Clannad is no exception.
Hopefully through this analysis of both Clannad and it’s sequel, Clannad: After Story, you may get a better understanding of all the little nuances and layers the show packs on, leading you on a journey that’s as transcendently beautiful as it is heartbreaking.
Note: The following analysis contains a heavy amount of spoilers for Clannad and Clannad: After Story, so proceed with caution. If you have…
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KIndie Mixtape. ♥
Inspired by my lovely Mexican friend and her lovely mixtape for Pachinko Overdrive(if you haven’t download it yet, you should!), Cipa, I’ve decided to make my own #kindie mixtape too. Because she already did a great job at choosing the best Korean indie-pop songs for her mixtape, I’m going to do it differently.
Since I’m a biggest fan of acoustic music to begin with, so this time I’m making an acoustic #kindie mixtape. While mixing the songs, I wonder how Korean indie bands did that, you know, creating such awesomeness in music with something that sounds so simple.
To be honest, I had a really tough time choosing the songs but after a looooong consideration, this is my final track list for the mix. Let me know if you guys enjoy it, I might make another one some other time 😉
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